I read it wrongly?

I have tried reading a book since 1st Nov 2007. To date, I have read it almost 7 months & 6 days. I have started from the - Cover, the Preface, the Content Page - and bit by bit...I have not completed it and it is definitely not an easy book to read and complete.

I have read this book almost everyday until one day on 18 March, I almost lose it. I have bookmarked some of the pages, I have folded some corners of the pages so that I can turn back to those pages when I need them. I have accidentally stained some of the pages with my own carelessness and insensitivity, I have highlighted some lines to remember them by heart, I have tried my very best to remember them all. I tried to keep the book in the best condition, but it may not be at all for the book.

There is not many pictures in the book, but I remember vividly when and where I have read the book. Those days which I have spent time with the book, those were really great time even though it takes me effort to read it. The book has been with me on those days which I just needed to hold on to something. Just being there with me was really good.I am willing to read the book as often as it is willing to be read. I want to understand the book better each time I read it, and I wish to be one of those who can read this book best.

However, recently, I have wonder if I have really read the book or understand the book at all.Can you speak to me instead, can tell me how you really feel? I have flipped you from page to page and sometimes just do not know what you were trying to tell me. I was expected to read but wouldn't it be faster for you to speak to me instead?

Nevertheless, I still treasure you from DAY ONE I started reading and still loving you with nothing less!