...I am real confuse...

Some of you may have wondered or has been asking whether I deserted by blog again...well, guess I was not in the mood to write and I have been suffering from insomnia for the pass 2/3 weeks...

Some said I have been oppressive, think I am really bothered by all that has been happening around me. I am almost losing sight of what is in front of me...and when I turn back, I again trying to find the traces I have left behind me...

Can I take it all over again? From all angles, I look strong, self-reliant, determined and strong-willed...Deep inside me, guess not many people know...I am just a very ordinary person who also need the basic stuff to keep me going...

Each day I am weaker, each day I find myself with more burden with me, each day I take longer time to lift my leg to walk, each day I find my foot prints deeper into the sand...will I choose to stop walking one day? will I just refuse to walk someday?

I hope it will not come so soon...not so soon...I hope...